I find myself in the most lavish of settings on the weekends while i play the part of the quiet cellist for every opera musical and show the orchestra has the chance to play. people try to speak to me asking me why I am in such a cities group...I never answer. Though I have tasted the beauty of the stages of London and Paris, I feel that i am not worthy of those things...my music...it is imperfect. A mess. I lack the skill to play teh only song I have ever truly wished to master. So why can I play everything else?

I need to get out of here...I havent even slept yet and I have to work tonight but all this quiet is driving me mad...Is Axel even here?

...A walk...I will go on a walk.

-Chevalier

how strange how walking home far to early from a night walking far to late can change the entire feeling of this life. Since that day I do not mind going to classes as much nor have I faltered in my music. I do think that making this single friend may have been very good for me. Maybe this is what master Joel meant my sending me here.

I met a woman named Misa, she made me see that those bastards made me stand still 20 minutes for every photo me and the lady of the house had taken for no reason! There are more cameras then just the obscura! I am quiet cross about this. And at the same time I wouldn't give up my obscura photos...they are all I really have left. I still detest the man who made us stand there that long and lose that time....1000 pictures in a matter of minutes....Annoying of them! I could have had more of my life had they been truthful!

Axel, If your not to busy I would like to speak with you about a few things. Some things I don't understand about this city. I know I must annoy you with this and for that I apologize. I also have someone I'd like you and Miss Filla to met when you both have a chance. If this is alright with you.

Luppi, I do apologize for leaving the way I did I would have been late for class had I waited for you to wake. I will make it up to you at a later date if you wish it. Simply let me know what it is you want and if it is in my power I will make it yours.

-Chevalier

....Its been two years.... Two years since they left me behind in ...this world. This strange world that is so far from our safe haven...Why....Why did that have to happen...Joel’s birthday....it destroyed us all....God...please...

I cant perform tonight....I cant play....I want to be alone...

-Haji

...I have remembered this small fact, now, if I can only figure out what this "Flashing" is I may find out and retrieve theses Tacos for Axel. A thank you for all of his kindness.

I think I need to invest in this. Yes, I shall.

-Chevalier

I must admit I have never truely tried to listen to any of the music that Miss Haruka has presented me, I really have no reason why and for this I do completely apologize. I simply learn it to learn it but this morning I overheard music I believe it was coming from Axel's room and I did like what I heard I wish I knew the name of that song, it was beautiful I want to learn to play it. Maybe someone may know what it was called, the man singing described life as 'bittersweet' and how we are all slaves to money till we die. It was completely beautiful.

I returned home to such a warm welcoming from Axel, I must really find a way to thank him for making me feel so welcomed around him. This will require some thinking but for now I believe I should get going, again I wonder why I am taking Aviation...but I will be late if I do not leave now.

-Chevalier

It would seem I still have many things to learn about this world, for example that Axel does not infact wish to be 'a taco' that is it a mexican food. while he is my canadian roommate. These are things that I have learned over today and yesterday.

Also I have learned that Miss Haruka writes her own music that she sent me, that they are songs from movies.

My trip has been extended two more weeks. That is all.

It seems so strange to me to be here in this place, I seperated from the orchestra while they went ahead to Paris; I choose to stay behind when they were passing Bordeaux, I have come to see the chared remains of what use to be my life before all of the tradgey.

And yet I find myself loojking at the wild roses and realizing that its not all as terrible as it seems, I do now have people who seem to wish for my companionship, and then again fellow minded musicians who's style makes me feel more at peice with my own.

It makes me miss her more and more when I play; but this place reminds me she's gone, the name its self is a reminder we were just two more things caged up for the master's amusment. Perhapse the Zoo burning was a good thing. No that can be, that is how I lost her. I an nothing now.

...Axel...do you still wish my return?

My run in this orchestra will soon be over, as the woman I replaced is almost ready to return from her maternity leave. So I will be returning to cross as soon as possible, I hope I have not kept the three of you waiting to long, Miss Haruka, I have learned to play the music.

And Michiru, I would like to play with you again someday.

Axel, I have retrived you presents from each stop as I was informed that it would be expected of a friend, I do hope this pleases you.

-Haji

For now I enjoy home
[ooc; he knows not of character Drops~]

I believe I will be retruning to the university in a month or two, It would seem the woman I have replaced is almost prepared to return to her post in the orchestra. It has been quiet enjoyable while it lasted but I do need to get back to school and start on the degree as it was the final will of my keepers.

….It is simply so hard to know that it happened so long ago and yet I remain as I always have. Here, alive. I know I should not be though, this is a fact. I, Haji Chevalier should by all accounts be a dead man. So why do I continue to trudge on?

I do need to inquire about the well being of Axel, if he is well. I do hope he will not be to cross with me for being gone so long. I did not know the show pushed past the Christmas holidays, which in short means that I did indeed lie to my…friend, yes friend that is what Axel would be I do think.

Also on a closing note, Miss Haruka, I have mastered that strange music you gave me I will show you and Miss Michiru upon my return.

I find it so hard not to miss Saya when the snow falls like this so beautiful; it reminds me of her pure beauty. Why did I have to lose her…I do not wish to be here without my beloved Saya…

-Chevalier


[ooc; slashes hackable]

...oh what a whirl-wind of strange becomings.

I played this afternoon for a small crowd in town, I played her song. Like a ghost from those forbidden memories I could have believed the girl I saw fall was her...but their is no way that woman could not be her for she died...so why did I freeze up like that and run like some coward...back to the room...

That is where I saw Axel when I gathered my belongings for the trip, it was nice. Almost like ...I really belong somewhere.

...either way my planes leaving soon so, au revoir ville en travers.

-Chevalier
[ooc; strikes hackable]

So strange to already have mail arrive...I never got mail at Master Joel's estate. ...It is a wonderful offer...I wonder if I should take it...

Today started as such a strange affair, I was delivered the orders of my room...it turns out Axel is my roommate, it was a bit strange but oddly nice to know I would not have to met someone else instead. what was Joel thinking... I wish I could have gotten more time to settled in first. But alas, I had promised the two ladies that I would play with them this evening and I could not break such a promise. The practice went ...rather well...I have the strangest sheet music now the notes make no sense to me...but lately nothing is making since I was always told the Americans were crazy.

The song is called Thriller so strange it is...

Then I got myself in some mess over a comment I made...such...No. I will say no more. I shall go to bed. instead...

-Chevalier

Today I played for a crowd in the park, they seemed to like my playing so this makes me happy. After that Lady Michiru took me out for coffee. It smelled like cinnamon but did not taste of cinnamon.

-Chevalier

…Miss Michru was nice…I didn’t expect to see her when I went out to play to clear my head. Her friend Miss Haroca? I hope I spelled that right…I am to play with the two of them on Friday at 6pm Piano, Violin and cello I should have asked what they wished to play so I can practice…

( “Private//Mostly )
-Chevalier

...the train ride was ....not very enjoyable, so many people pushed in such a small place. I almost lost my case when people started shoving around...and that man...he stole my ribbon. I will find him, he must be in that class he told me to stake so I plan to take both of those aviation classes just to find that man!

Its very cold, I stopped at a cafe while looking for the hotel and met a man named Axel and his miss Filia. They were very nice people, Axel even helped me find the hotel and I don't feel a nervous as I did before, becuase I know everything shall work out now. Hopefully.

-Chevalier

I have arrived in America, as Joel’s final will has stated that I am to live in the city of Cross, a place that seems to rival the great city of Paris that I traveled through to get here. It was a beautiful trip, I wish they could have been with me Its hard to believe what feels like only months ago was over a year and a half ago since Joel‘s birthday and the death of all that I know. Cest la vie, The long drive from the country into the city to the airport, I have had my first real flight on an airplane.

As instructed I am to take the list of classes Joel prepared for me in case this ever happened, it was as if he knew it would happen and I would survive, sometimes I think of what a scary man my master was. I was left with his money but I must obtain a degree before I can inherit it fully, he has also made sure I will have a seat in the Orchestra here, I don’t think I am good enough for a big city orchestra I am but a simple cello artist. He thinks I can live on my talents alone when all I have ever known is life inside of the estate, life as he and she dictated. How am I to live without them? Why did this happen? Why did I survive?

The ride on the plane was not as terrible as I had been led to believe it would be, in fact it was quiet enjoyable to watch how tiny things looked from so high up I do think my masters would have loved to have seen it, well I know Joel has done this before but not her. Now that I have landed I have decided that I should start this log and keep track of my adventures in America, Perhaps from Haji Chevalier the servant to Haji Chevalier the cellist. I hope I make them proud.

-Chevalier